One Year Ago Today

One Year Ago Today…….

I Married My Best Friend

I’m not saying that every married couple should be each others best friends, in fact I strongly recommend having some other close friends. That being said before Cory and I ever considered a romantic relationship we had already established a strong friendship. That friendship did not diminish as we moved into a romantic relationship. He remains the first person that I want to talk to about everything.

I Married An Amazing Father

Margo and Atticus certainly reap the rewards of having a strong and encouraging father in their lives.

Cory coming into our lives, changed our lives. Cory brought the kids and I closer as a family unit, largely by reducing our daily stresses so that we could enjoy each other more.

Cory is amazing with them, he is a constant presence in their lives, even being away four days a week he makes great efforts to be there and to make sure they know he is genuinely interested and concerned.

He plans family activities big and small. He actually does things with them such as biking, baseball and playing games. The positive effects of this attention are so easy to see, they feel safe and comfortable. They want to engage in things that interest him; it makes my heart so happy to see them with him.

I Married An Impressive Role Model

Cory sets a great example to our children of behaviours that they strive to emulate. He treats people kindly and with respect. He takes care of his family, and treats us well. He works hard, both at his job and around the house.

We Celebrated Our Family

Our wedding was a beautiful and wonderful day. We had a great time putting together a wedding that would represent us. And we were successful in that goal, our wedding was fabulous. Having the kids stand with us in front of our families and closest friends was an honour.

One year ago today we had a blast celebrating our love and family. Today we spent some time with Margo and Atticus celebrating the anniversary of that wonderful day.

XOXO Alice

I’m Off To See The Wizard

Ok not the wizard….

I’m off the see the psychiatrist.

And of course with my luck I am dragging along an eight year old with a migraine.

At the moment my level of satisfaction with this particular doctor is pretty low. After repeated suggestions on my part that my mood is strongly affected by my period, she continues to schedule me to see her exactly eight weeks later. So every other month she is seeing me at my best time of the month.

Also because I get nervous about discussing my feelings, I have a habit of taking a sedative in the morning. So while I’m well past the max effect when she sees me I still appear calmer than I actually am.

We have also have always started by discussing the events of my life. So that by the time we are done that there is no time to review my medication so we haven’t made changes that I was told would happen.

Today I pull back the curtain

Today I have not taken any sedative so I am not feeling particularly calm.

This will give her better insight into how well I actually am.

Also when my doctor gave me the news that instead of just Trigeminal Neuralgia I seem to have Fibromyalgia as well he sent her a note that I may not be doing that well.

And while as long as I stay on top of taking my medication we have managed to get to an overall pain level of about 2, we have not been able to get it lower than that and I also still have spikes of pain that reach about a level 8.

This weekend we missed softball practice because I literally was in so much pain I could not drive there. How is that acceptable?

So today I plan to…..

Start by asking about my medication.

Insist on appointments that are seven weeks apart so that she sees at different points in my cycle.

And bringing my daily wellness log so that I do not gloss over how frustrated I actually am with my state of being.

Wish me luck,

XOXO Alice

Some Times It Doesn’t Need To Be Perfect

Is The Idea Of Perfection Getting You Down

I started this website/blog so that I could share my thoughts and ideas. Also so that I could get practice running a website for another venture.

The problem is that I never publish on this website.

I get so caught up with thinking of the perfect subject or the perfect way to write about it.

I worry about what the people I know will think of what I write. I wonder if my kids will find this one day and what they will think of it.

All of these thoughts have been preventing me from actually doing what I was supposed to which is to write.

I needed to sit back and re-examine why I had this website.

It wasn’t about impressing people or sharing any life changing secrets, it’s just about writing and sharing my story.

Giving those few people who may be interested a small glimpse into my life.

Living with and managing chronic illnesses while raising two absolutely amazing little beings. I’m pretty certain there will be plenty of available subject matter. So I am letting go of the idea of finding a perfect subject, it would be something different for everybody.

What I will do is embrace myself and share my journey; with those who are interested that is.

family walking — Stay tuned for more of antics

XOXO Alice